Here and Now is over :(

Just heard the news and it’s oh so sad. The man…the

god…the legend…Mr. Luther Vandross…is no longer with us. I saw it on CNN and i know this is gonna sound weird…but it

made me think of my high school girlfriend.

Her name was Olivia…and she was/is one of the most talented people i’ve ever

had the pleasure to meet. She is an actress…plays piano…guitar…and sings like a mofo. So yeah…i loved listening to her

sing…and play and do anything. And she’d always ask me to sing…and i’ll tell you now…I CAN’T SING. In high school i

wasn’t really into music…unless i was watching her or bea play. Which was normally like everyday. But I wasn’t personally

into it. At the time i couldn’t play guitar…it was just a little dream i had…to be able to play like dave matthews or

stevie ray vaughn. And now…i mean i don’t put myself in Dave or Stevie’s graces…but i can play. I even dabble a lil on

the piano. I love music now. but anyway…

Well…like i said before…she would always ask me to sing…but i was so scared

of looking like an idiot. But one day…I was sitting in my room…on my waterbed…yeah dats right…i said waterbed…and i

was listening to my Luther Vandross Greatest Hits CD…when suddenly i grew some balls. I called her voicemail…cause that’s

what we had back in the day…she had a voicemail…and i had a pager…we were big ballas. So i called her voicemail…cause

that way she wouldn’t be laughing at me. And i sang “Here and Now”.

I doubt she even remembers this…or even thought it

was a big deal. But…at the time. i thought…since she’s so into music…and i’m not…and she was trying to get me into

it…that this would be like the greatest present/surprise for her ever. I know I know…giving myself way too much credit…for

me singing badly into a voicemail…but it was hard for me. But i did it…for her.

Anyway…if you know…me…you

understand how…this random ass story…makes perfect sense. Cause every thing that comes out of my mouth is random as hell.

But yeah…Luther…we’ll miss ya. You’re the man.

late

ray



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